This morning was one of those rare occasions when I actually got a seat on the subway. As I sat on the bench and looked up I caught a glimpse of my own reflection on the window directly across me. It occurred to me that I’ve been riding this train for a long time now. The first time was when my grandfather brought me to my first day of second grade. I was 7 years old. Some thirty years later, I’m still on the same IRT line! That’s when it struck me: the same God who was watching over me then is the same God who is watching over me now.
In my minds eye I kind of reviewed my life story – almost as if from atop a panoramic view. I thought about all the places I’ve been, and all the places I shouldn’t have been. I thought about all my sins, and all the adulteries of my heart. I thought about all the ups and downs, all the failures, and all the breakthroughs. I thought about all the times I’ve wavered in unbelief, and all the times I’ve gotten up – only to lean on His grace. As I mulled it all over, I couldn’t help but ask, “God, what are you still doing here? You should have left me a long time ago.” What kind of God is this who – after everything, still insists on being loyal to me? A quiet trust filled my heart and mind. For reasons unbeknownst to me, this God, who has made me the object of His affection, will never stop loving me.
“Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.” (Isaiah 46:4)
”The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” (Lamentations 3:22-23)